Yes, the bukhari jalsa was really, absolutely great! Loved the jamiah tarana/anthem...and mawlana fadhlurahman sbs bayaan.. But, frankly speaking, its caused even more restlessness in my heart..imagine what honour the graduants got today..the aalim who spent 10years,all of them spending 6 whole years! I haven't even given a year for allah's deen! The feeling is coming..and its magnitude is great...this is honour plus yesterday mlna fadhlurahman talked of the mother from america making her 6 yr old hafidh... I think honour lies in deen....so rather sacrifice my energy,intelligence and time on deen than on dunya..then again..i go to the other side...this matter is eating me up! I have to seriously talk to someone but don't know who..my dad is either at the office or the masjid and no courage to talk..one side mawlana Yunus is telling me to stop..the other side, there's family support..dont know where to go what to do...ya allah...allahumajburni..