What is normal? This is a common misunderstanding I keep seeing on the forum. Let me clarify again, what one shaikh practices, his methodology, doesnt apply to everyone. Different people have different methodology. I think in Moulana Shah Hakeem Akhtar sahabs db silsilah the mureeds are forbidden to write or say these types of things. But in other shuyookh silsilah the mureed has to write or say such things. I think in many places in Fazail e Amaal Shaikh Zakariyyah ra calls many bad things to himself. Sometimes tawadho instills deep in a person, cannot help but to say and feel such things. Sometimes even worse than to think such things, a person will wish to even committ suicide but doesnt because it is haraam - ghalba of tawazo can go to such an extent. Person sometimes has to mention he has khilafath so that it shows he has some authority to speak on the topic. If a person gave fatwa on here we can ask him what authority he has to give fatwa.