I've read several books, and each one mentioned the maxim "You must first defeat yourself before you can defeat an opponent." Well, I began my 3rd month of training on Jan 7th, and this past Saturday it hit me. Everything was going along smoothly, but when we began kirikaeshi it all fell apart. I began waaaay too fast, and completely screwed up... lost count, missed my target, etc. Next round, I over-thought the process and again lost rhythym. Last round, I was so out-of-sync, I mis-stepped and almost fell down. Funny thing is, it also happened to 3 of my fellow students. Just wanted to share.
I was talking to a friend about this thread last night and he said to me something that stuck: 'a mantra shouldn't be negative and defeat is a very negative word'. Now that I think about it, it does sounds like you're trying to crush your own spirit! We came up with overcome. I think that's better. 'You must first overcome yourself before you can overcome your opponent'. Triumph and correction without the implication of downfall.