I think, in all seriousness, that isnt something we can help you with. But as a start, you should get off the internet. You want to impress people and belong? Then get out there and DO something, work hard and earn the respect you want. After the nasty crap youve said about wonderful people I know in Perth - THAT YOUVE NEVER MET, theres lots more Id love to say to you, but that would achieve nothing. Go live a real life. Whatever. Just go away.