[GogaMegaPis]

This is really intriguing.You are only 15 and you can see the changes and affects that Drugs and Alcohol are having on you already. Make it your mission to do something about it now, rather then later, coz believe me, it only gets harder to break that cycle and the the destruction can get worse. Drugs often being one's downfall, hand in hand with jail and for some, an early demise. These are your formative years where you begin to learn more about yourself and about others, good influences and bad. You still have the early adult years to come, with uni, parties, meeting girls, the whole nine yards. The decisions you make now will always affect you tommorow.So when you experience a rough time due to a poor decision you have made, you have a the chance to say I don't want to go throught that ever again. Think yourself lucky.You have seen a side of you which is clearly destructive. Create some positive outlets to avoid finding yourself in these type of situations. Kendo may be an alternative for you, or jogging, keeping fit an active, meditation, reading books, surfing, playing an instrument, writing stories or poems, photography religion,whatever. The list goes on. Find a a passion that will direct you towards a positve path. That may be what you are lacking at the moment. Good luck man. I hope it works out.