Wa 'Alaikum Salam, You must not hate yourself, start loving yourself. As you have a problem and want to fix it - this is very rare in today's world. Many people know what they do is against Shariah yet they do it and want to promote it. This is a very small thing, I too had this problem once. But this might lead to a bigger trouble for you, think in that way. Again when something happens, just wait for sometime and think and respond. Its easy to fix.