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I don't know what to do anymore. I hope someone has good words and links. I'm just thinking, why acts in worship itself are so OCD in nature (allah forgive me). So precise, so much detail, so many ways someone can go wrong. The more knowledge I gain, the crazier and more psychotic I'm becoming. Like I can't relax to gain any khushoo. Even medicine doesn't work, unless I plan to get addicted to a benzo.

Thanks brothers and sisters for sitting through this long wall, I apologize if this offended anyone. I just need help from other Muslims, as, my own Muslim friends are not all that knowledgeable.[/QUOTE]

Wa alaikum assalam. I hope you are well brother. I used to have the same problem. Try realising that these waswasas are not from you but from shaithaan, who wants us to go to hell with him. I told a brother at the local masjid the same problem. He advisedme to read "Aoodhu bil laa hissa mee il alleemi minash shaitaan ir ajeem. This means " I seek protection with Allah the All Hearer, the All Knower, from the accursed shaithaan. Read this before wudhu and salah, inshallah you will be ok. Please don't think there is anything wrong with you, maybe shaithaan is trying that little bit harder on you. Rely on Allah inshallah He will help you repel Shaithaan, who doesn't want ease for you in worshipping Allah. Alhamdhullillah I don't get the waswasa now. Wasalam