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I had completely forgotten about this post, though I had run into road blocks with her again and again. I don't think she intends to cause me harm at all. She just doesn't understand where my belief structure is coming from. For example, she believe my belief in faeries is fanciful and there because pagans believe in Faeries and thats what I call myself. But really, I believed in Fae before I knew what paganism even was. She doesn't know this.

It is a tough age, trying on many different beliefs to see how they fit in with who you are. I've been having a lot of difficulty. I don't know how to not care when someone attacks my beliefs and derails them. It must be something that takes time and practice. Whether she wants me to head toward Shamanism...or whatever I choose is not really her decision anyway.

To answer your question Joyful, I'm really not sure what being a Shaman means. I've found no teacher to train me, and dislike going by text books. I think that sort of definition defines itself as time goes on. Whether or not I'm going to become a practicing, recognized Shaman is debatable. I have no clue! What I do know is that I'm learning a lot, and that the lessons mean something to be on an intellectual, spiritual and emotional level. I try to practice them...sometimes live them day to day, other times the chaos of school and other matters get in the way. But they're also lessons that are useful.

Thats pretty vague. Anyway, it sounds like you had a wonderful experience. I would love to hear you speak more about being a Healer.