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Hi monkey,

I'm quite puzzled as to why you would envy people who don't care about inconveniencing or hurting others. Why would you envy attitudes like that ?

with kind wishes,

Aloka

Hi Aloka- I have a hard time explaining this even to myself. It's not that I envy their attitude, I certainly don't think it's okay to inconvenience or hurt others. I think it's more the freedom it seems to give them, that they seem to have no problem doing what they please. For example, my coworkers who have no problem letting me do more work. They are free to have a less stressful day, while I would feel guilty pawning work off on others.

As I have thought more and more about this I realize it's a complex problem. I think my envy is at the root; stemming from the fact that I try to be a good person and strive to help others. While other people are self absorbed and seem happier. Yes, I try to let go of my perceptions of others, but I am really stuck on this one.

I hope that makes more sense; sorry, as I said I am still confused on this myself.

With metta
monkey