[juliannamed]

Hi hornets,

Items 1-5 are some excellent ideas and I hope you follow through with them. They could be of substantial help to you. You seem to know exactly what will assist you most, and that itself is great news.

Personally, it took me a while to get going in my practice. As a beginner, I primarily read contemporary works and focused on the simplest of the core teachings. I did not maintain a regular meditation practice, nor did I understand Buddhism beyond a surface level. Like you, there were times I felt disheartened.

Only after a few years of preliminary examination did I dive any deeper. I started taking my practice more seriously, meditating regularly with a group, and exploring the classical teachings. It was then that I began to feel like I was absorbing everything I was learning like a sponge.

If you stick with a practice, you'll likely experience the growth that often accompanies it. Good luck.



Abhaya