[Kingerix]

Hello Jacaranda,

You said: "Sometimes I don't actually like being "present"because it makes me face reality,and at the moment,reality is'nt a very good place for me to be"

From my understanding, if you truely are in the present moment, then it would be impossible that you like/dislike reality. The mind/the self/the ego needs "time" to operate, and the mind cannot think or judge reality if its truely in the present moment. In the present moment, everything is neutral/natural.

For example, if you watch the sunset, then you tell yourself: "the sunset is so beautiful" the time you start to judge the sunset, it became already past. If your are in the present moment, then there is no time to think!!! there will always be a new visitor (a new moment) and you will become merely an observer.

You cannot think in the present moment, its just impossible, try it . Consequently, freedom can only be found in the present moment.

Time=ego/delusion.

Regards,
Bundokji