[layedgebiamma]

You can have buddhist pro-westlers, teachers, politicians, TV hosts, whatever.

Actually, I'm recording a hip hop album that primarily discusses anarchy as a positive ideal (albeit not one that would be a good idea to impliment tomorrow). I throw in a ridiculous amounts of buddhist philosophy in the lyrics, because buddhism is about everything (nothing?).

You don't have to "not care" about things to be a buddhist, either. Buddha clearly cared about teaching enlightenment, or he wouldn't have done it. The difference is not becoming so obsessed with something that you let it ruin your life, or cause you pain.

I think, in your situation, I would take some time to meditate on how your conflict is causing stress in your life.

And remember to take it all in stride. Nobody is expected become enlightened within a certain amount of time. The important thing is to take steps that are comfortable for you. And, when you are ready, to take more.

Hope this helped you, Stormsy. Sorry you're having trouble.