[illignocearia]

I'm just getting more and more into a consistent habit of meditating. I finally sat tonight after a few days of not committing any time to it.

I feel that cultivating mindfulness is coming out in different ways in my life.

I've committed myself to vegetarianism as I have a hard time eating meat when I am mindful of the fact it was once a living breathing animal. (this is just a personal detail of my progress - not meant to lord it over any one)

I've also noticed my dreams are becoming more meaningful. Instead of just being random sequences I am starting to have meaningful conversations in my dreams.

I've also been going in and out having days where the moment suddenly seems to be ambushed by goodness. I have a heightened sense of awareness of things around me and how they are just so beautiful.

There's something in life that I am seeking. It doesn't really have name. I refer to it as the kingdom of God because that's the language I've been raised with. It represents the substance of life, of passion, of goodness, of happiness, of peace, of joy. It means making the most out of my days.

I haven't completely locked on to this "kingdom of god" but I feel taking on the path of meditation and seeking my way through selections from the Pali canon is only helping develop this.