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hello white_wolf. If it helps I used to get really mad at myself for thinking. I wonder if the following books would help you at all---- Mindfulness in plain English by Gunaratana, The Insight Meditation Toolkit by Sharon Salzberg & Joseph Goldstein? They really helped me, and I actually read em. The Toolkit has meditations on CD that are really helpful for starting daily practice.

I really came on in leaps and bounds once I found a centre I was comfortable with, I hope the following links may help you.

http://dhamma.ru/sadhu/home This may help in locating a centre near you

http://www.dharmastream.org/ Really good insight meditation site

http://www.buddhanet.net/ebooks_m.htm links to meditation ebooks

http://www.accesstoinsight.org/ really good for loads of stuff

http://diydharma.org/ some really good guided meditations to download

http://www.dhammatalks.org/mp3_index.html ditto

http://www.audiodharma.org/talks/ ditto

http://www.buddhanet.net/ loads of stuff on this