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PV, I am sorry that you have struggled. It does seem like life is conspiring against us sometimes and it can be very hard to deal with people. One thing that helps me is to look at every experience as a learning experience. Angry people help you learn how not to be angry yourself. People who want to argue make you question your views and strengthen them with new reasoning. Challenges in life make you find new ways to meet them and grow stronger.

That being said, sometimes it just feels like too much and all you want to do is rest, for life to be easy. That is when I meditate and focus on my breath, and try to find my way back to myself. Of course, it is not that easy and it takes work, which is the last thing you usually want. But stick with your practice and will come. Come back here to read what others have to say, that always helps me as well.

As far as being arguing with you, challenging you, and feeling like people analyze you- this is what I have learned from my own journey and from a dear friend of mine who has been working on herself. People sometimes see the journey you are on, the steps you are taking, and the improvements you are making on yourself, and it makes them uncomfortable. It makes them aware of their own unhappiness, of things about themselves they wish were different, of changes they wish they could make. Dealing with your internal issues and making positive changes takes hard work, strength, and courage; many people do not have the courage to try and it makes them angry when they see someone who does. I don’t think there is any malice behind these feelings, just envy.

Best wishes for your journey to patience
~m