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Old 12-04-2011, 04:39 PM   #18
ivandiadser

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I want to eventually become a Buddhist, but I don't know if I can embrace not being attached to anything.

For example. I love my parents and my sister unconditionally and I am attached to them. I don't want to stop loving my parents and my sister and other family members. I don't understand how you can let go of attachments and still love in the same way.

I havn't meditated at all in days and I am not proud of that. I just had this dream one night (from what I remember) and this girl was in it. I wont go into too much detail but it had to do with not being alone. I am single and I was very emotionally attached to this girl. I woke up feeling like I will always want to be attached to the "girl of my dreams" and then I had doubts about me ever being able to embrace Buddhism enough to become a Buddhist. I honestly want to be attached to the concept of romance.

At the same time I want to practice Buddhism. I feel like I am contradicting myself. I just am a very emotional person and am struggling spiritually because of this inward confliction.

Thank you to anyone who has read this.
Buddhist practice is not about getting rid of one identity and acquiring a new one, is about getting to the heart of one's actual nature.
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