[meencegic]

I went to centre group meeting one night, feeling like I needed to receive " some thing " - lol. I was emotionally stretched, tired, overwhelmed and wanted to feel something nice and pleasant, as I often did when I attended this group.
Well ... this night I was called upon, as a member of the group to be doing a group meditation and focusing on giving ... I just didn't feel that I had anything to give, in fact I believed that I knew I didn't and when I was asked to begin the chanting, I felt shocked.
My teacher, at the time, was there and nodded at me, several times as I struggled and then sat down next to me and we began.
It progressed to be a very beneficial meeting and I left feeling energised and only later remembered how drained I had felt earlier.
Reflecting later I saw that I needed to break into the current line of thoughts with something that pulled my mind away from what was bothering me so much - detaching rather than holding on.