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Thank you Aloka-D. I will watch that before I meditate again.

Thank for your advice Yuan. Your answer makes me think a lot. I will need to think on this for a while. Kaarine's recent post on this thread and what I have learned about Buddhism so far got me thinking. I think that it is how I have had an illusion of a permanent "me". I think I feel guilty that I have been racist even very racist in the past. I don't consider myself to be a racist person now. I think that I feel like I am that same person that was racist when in reality the "me" now is a totally different person than the one that was very racist. I think it is behaviors in certain Christians that I have hated. I feel like i'm able to let that hate go. I have thought it over after taking in what advice i've been given. I feel differently I think now then I did when I wrote my original post on this thread. Thank you for the advice Yuan. I really appreciate it. I will reflect on what you said.