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i have a couple of things i hope anyone can help with or give some advice.

so i have tried meditation and i never stick with it, im ADHD so that makes it a tad harder. and i get pretty hard on my self if i cannot calm my mind because it always races. also i sit on the floor "Indian style" and my lower back starts to hurt and i feel like i focus on it after ten minutes until i pop it, then 5 minutes later it hurts again. ideas?

i have a lot of stress and anxiety issues, im on a medication that makes it a lot worse. before the medication i used to have a string of about 25 mala beads on my wrist, when i felt stressed or started thinking negative thoughts i would start counting them with my breaths, it helped a lot. now that im on the medication it does not help much, like if i forget what bead im on i will get frustrated and stop.

the last thing is about living in the moment or mindfulness. i cant seem to do either right now. my mind constantly races and i get depressed very easy. so one way i stop my self from getting depressed is daydream. i like to write short story’s so i will usually day dream a plot and make a story in my head and if i think it is good write it down later. (this i know is not living in mindfulness). what are some things you do every day to help yourself live mindfully, i know i can do it 100% of the time right off the bat, but if i work at it i can gain knowledge and wisdom to help myself and others.

thank you for your time, chris.