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Ok, at about the 25 minute mark I seem to get really restless and want to come out of my sitting meditation and by about 30 minutes I definitely need to just stop. While a few months ago I had this problem about the fifteen minute mark and came at about 20 minutes so I guess its just a matter of practice but does anyone had any tips on this? I've tried to say to myself restless, restless etc and it works for a while but I just sometimes need to just stop its like there is a barrier I can't go through.

I've also had a couple of quite deep realisations into the way things are lately and when they have happened they have left me a little high there is a feeling of exhilaration that comes with them, I wonder how to deal with the "high" its a little disconcerting.

I'm also having difficulty finding a Theravadin Sangha thats nearby, the one in Leicester is difficult because of the time I spend with my GF - she's usually busy with work and looking after her mother in the week, so weekends are all we really have. I contacted the Vihara in Birmingham - it not too much more expensive than getting to Leicester but the guy I spoke to on the phone was Burmese and couldn't really undertsand what I was saying (no wonder they didn't answer my e-mail).

When I first started out Aloka pointed me in the direction of the Samatha trust but I kind of misinterpeted what the lady was trying to teach me, plus the fact that if I missed the last train home from the class (which is quite early on a rural line) I'd be spending a cold night on a rural platform with no shelter in sight. They have a class in Birmingham that ends at 8 PM on a weekday night so its good for me - I thought I'd at least go along and have a look.