[CenICrerflind]

So I was sitting meditating this morning, and came aware of a hard "lump" of dead/bad feeling in my solar plexus. Thoughts came to mind of people who had taken away my personal power, and I kept practicing the letting go. Many things came up....realizations of how they acted out of ignorance, anger at how they had "set the stage" for my doormat-status while I was still young, I cried some, and kept practicing the letting go with each new thing as it came. In the middle of letting go of the people and thoughts, the thought of how I eat meat came up. "I've taken away these animals' power by supporting the ones who keep them in inhumane conditions all their life. Then in the end they are killed!"

I had a brief flash of the thought "never again" - then doubted whether I could keep that resolve for even a few days. I felt waves of shame at my ignorance, because it felt like my meat-eating does come from ignorance - like I don't understand, on a deep enough level, the necessity of caring for the animals like I care for myself. This all happened very fast.

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Well I just wanted to share....I would appreciate any comment/thought from folks who are vegetarian, or folks who are considering/wrestling with it like this also. I'd like to keep this thread out of the GENERAL debate as to whether ALL people should/shouldn't become vegetarians though....just looking for feedback on my experience.

(I've cut my meat consumption by a third or a half in the past 6-9 months but not gone the whole way.)

Thanks again you all.