[dalnecymync]

RE "negative feed back loop".
I too have had a lot of depression and find cognitive therapy helpful.
I look very carefully to the inner chatter that is going on in my brain and question myself diligently.
As for people thinking you look stupid or out of place; I had that problem for decades.
Don't value others higher than the highest potentials you see in yourself.
Booze and benzos sort of act as a port in a storm with excess a real no,no.