[CAxrrAYN]

Hello everyone
I'm in my early 40's and I've led a life so far with a low self esteem and I've often found the world to be a nasty place, full of aggressive unfriendly hurtful people. When I look back I suppose I feel like I've never been the real me, I've hidden from uncomfortable situations, lied to myself and generally had a very up and down personality with big highs and lows.

I've recently been looking at Buddhism and feel a strong connection with it.
I've read, The Art of Happiness, The Joy of Living, What makes you not a Buddhist, and Mindfulness in plain English. The things I've read about Karma and Mindfulness and Perspective I somehow feel that I've always known but I've not had the confidence to act on my inner feelings and have just acted in the "expected" way.

At the moment I have a calm peaceful mind and I'm not feeling troubled be the little things in life at all but I'm very aware that we all go through times like this and my focus is on building this feeling into a mental habit that will last and become more mindful and less reactive (and I must stop judging people, what a silly habit that can be).

I Don't really have a question to ask, I'm just taking the opportunity to share these feelings but I very much welcome any comments you might have.
Peace to you all