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I don't have a teacher. I am generally positive about things though, despite the doubts and fears I'm creating for myself (or rather, against myself). All is in the journey, I believe.

hi Compassus Sum

if we are following the Buddhist way of life and starting to meditate, then there will be a phase where emotions arise (to be purged or cleansed). This is a phase that requires patient endurance, which includes understanding such emotions are impermanent, when not fed or reinforced. This phase usually also requires some wise reflection, where some emotions must be reconciled with rational understanding.

Buddhist practise also involves spending some time devoting the mind to a stabilising object, such as meditation on in & out breathing, loving-kindness meditation (towards oneself, also towards others), etc

I also agree with the suggestion of Urgyen. It is good to attend a meditation group occassionally. In a meditation group, one can feel more grounded and gain guidance, if necessary, from other practitioners and/or teachers.

Kind regards

Element