Thanks for taking the time to provide your guidance. I've had my share of mental anguish...for instance I was abandoned by my mother at a young age without so much as a goodbye, so she could go and start a family somewhere else. I was suicidal by age 9, and it took me almost a decade and a half to get over it. But surely this cannot be the extent of suffering. I see many people suffering worse than I. Surely to truly appreciate freedom from suffering, one must be aware of the full extent of it's misery. Not many American's have experienced true suffering (from what I've gathered from my experiences in 3rd world countries).