[Nopayof]

Long-time lurker...

I have been going through a lot of unruly emotions.

When I meditate oftentimes I have this feeling of "I want" ... many times it doesn't even attach itself to anything, such as "I want this book" or "I want this food"...it's like this persistent thirst or lust, for something that doesn't even have a name!...

I can see sometimes that the cravings don't have substance...and that if I continue to run on the fumes of emotion, thought, and sensation, drunk on attachment and sensory input...I might not know exactly what would happen, but it's clearly not feasible.

It's times like these that I think, "I sure hope I am one of those kinds of beings who the Buddha was exhorted by Brahma to teach, whose eyes are 'but a little blinded by the dust of passion' (so that there's hope for me.)"

Well, this wasn't really a question I guess...I just felt people here would relate....