[Mehntswx]

Oh I agree...it is a good thing, not a problem. This craving has always been there. It's just my awareness is a little more refined.

Usually I meditate for 30 min / day...some days I do an hour.

It's weird because most people would not call me "drunk on attachment and sensory input." I'm a quiet person and do not give the impression of being greedy. But when I think of how much suffering is going on every day, and how my resources could be better spent by doing more meditation practice, showing more kindness, and forgoing more distractions (of all kinds) so that I can have some peace of mind for myself, and provide more for other people.

Then I think like...geez... but I want stuff so much, I can see it, it's not healthy; is it possible for someone so afflicted by delusion to even aspire to bodhisattva-hood?

Well it was just a down day today...no big deal. And getting "back to the fight" is too important to make a problem out of this feeling of discouragement.

Thanks fojiao2...it is good. I will get through it. Just needed to sound off.