[Aceroassert]

Hi Seeuzin, good to see you posting again !

When I meditate oftentimes I have this feeling of "I want" ...

Feelings come and go in meditation -when you become aware that you're thinking, bring the mind gently back to focusing on the breath again.

But when I think of how much suffering is going on every day, and how my resources could be better spent by doing more meditation practice, showing more kindness, and forgoing more distractions (of all kinds) so that I can have some peace of mind for myself, and provide more for other people. There's nothing wrong with wanting positive things for self and others, but its important
not to get over anxious about it and to relax a little and just take one step at a time.

You haven't said whether you've had offline meditation instruction or not - but I think Samatha meditation is possibly the best method to begin with, if you're a beginner and not attending a meditation class.

There are some Buddhist meditation instruction videos in our Study Links section which might be helpful for you too.

with kind wishes,

A-D