[Grainiary]

Dear Red Thread

Welcome to BWB.

I gained inspiration when I read your post.

I am unsure how om mani padme hum results in your mind generating meditation on death.

However it seems om mani padme hum is making your mind clear enough to see death is true for all of us.

To answer your question, yes, there will eventually be a deeper understanding and a level of acceptance.

However, sorrow will always arise from meditation on death (and will only end when perfect understanding and acceptance is developed).

Meditation on death is a most powerful practise. The Buddha said meditation on death gains a footing in the Deathless (Nirvana).

It seems, due to your mind's natural wisdom, your mind is generating meditation on death spontaneously.

The fruits of meditation on death are not coldness & detachment.

To the contrary, the fruits of meditation on death are tenderness & compassion. The Buddha said in the Dhammapada:

There are those who do not realise one day we all must die.
Those who do realise this end their quarrels. If you are a Mahayana student, you would have heard many stories about Bodhisatvas who cry & cannot bear the suffering of sentient beings.

The tenderness & compassion from meditation on death & teary eyed Bodhisatvas are born from this sorrow.

Kind regards

Element