[GroosteFoessy]

Okay, so, ive read fully every provided link/video provided to me in previous threads about all of my previous questions. For the most part, everything I was confused about or did not know, I now know and better understand.

All collective readings and results lead me to one final question that I have not yet found an answer for, nor yet fully understand.

SO, hopefully you guys can provide me with more information and help me understand, so that I won't hold onto this "neutral"/"negative"/"depressing" view of everything.

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From this link, http://www.what-buddha-taught.net/Bo...d_Rebirth.pdf, I have learned all about "not-self", and have a better understanding of it. As it more or less explains, everything is a combination of a simple 'automic mechanisms', and nothing is a self, but everything exists collectively. I agree, that makes sense.

And from this link, http://www.dharmaweb.org/index.php/V...:_Instruction, I have learned even more of the meaninglessness of simple things, and how we place emotional perceptions onto everything, thus categorizing things as "good" or "bad". And, in connection with the overall "goal" of Buddhism, getting rid of unsatisfactoriness (dhukka), (and, in connection with the above link on 'non-self') we need to realize and acknowledge that nothing is 'personal', and that all of our perceptions are based on emotion... In order to not suffer.... (IE become disattached)

BUT, all of these conclusions have kind of brought me to a 'neutrality' way of thinking... And obviously love and compassion is the Buddhist way of thinking...

If there is 'no-self' (or anatta), then do our actions really matter? Does anything we do really matter? "who" cares if I be mean to someone or go around killing tons of people? In the grand scheme of the universe, these actions, and their effects, wont 'mean' anything, and no 'one' personally is effected, since nothing has a 'self' anyway....

(I dont actually think I should go around killing people lol, im just using this as an example to explain my thought-process on this matter).

Furthermore, if you can extinguish dissatisfactoriness through non-attachment of emotions and the concept of 'non-self'... Will you not simultaneously dissattach yourself from the things you LIKE? How can you accept the notion of non-self and fully truly understand that all perceptions are based on your emotions.. without at the same time isntantly rejecting all "lust" and therefore 'wants and likes'... And even deeper so, love as well? For, if you extinguish Dhukka through acceptance of non-self and disattachment from emotions, are you not also at the same time extinguishing love and all positive emotions? (if you arent, then you arent truly 'enlightened' or disattached from Dhukka are you? [i cannot say for sure, as obviously, im not enlightened])

BUT, this way of thinking is scaring me into thinking that if I do truly realize and understand the concept of disattachment and non-self that I may fall out of love of the people I love... And obviously, I dont want to stop loving my family, my wife, etc.

And snapping back a moment to my first 'way of thinking', if you do become disattached from emotions and accept 'non-self', why would it still matter that you be 'compassionate'? Again, wouldnt neutrality and your actions be almost irrelevant? Wouldnt any sort of 'compassion', 'niceness', or 'love' to others merely be more examples of attaching emotions to them and the way you perceive them?




So, if any of you can please clear this up for me, that would really be great lol. As I obviously dont want to think like this, dont want to accept nothing as mattering, and dont want to accept stop loving of the people I love... But logically, these are the conclusions ive come to based on my understanding of what ive learned so far.....