[jadabaad]

Thanks for your reply.

Today, being the second day since ive decided to begin meditating on a daily basis, I got a lot 'further' than I have at all my previous meditation attempts.

I came home from work a little bored, a little on edge, and a little kinesthetic. I decided to force myself to 15 minutes of meditation, despite how I previously felt 'unsuccessful' about it.

At first, I was very full of thoughts and minor distractions. As well, I was starting to get angry/frustated. I ALMOST gave up in frustration, but I stuck it through, trying to constantly drop the thoughts, ignore the emotion, and focus again on the breathing.

Sure enough, I actually became total relaxed and calm, losing all previous feelings of boredom/on-edge/frustration. I even want to say I almost felt my 'aura', or energy, specifically between my two thumbs when they slightly separated as I became relaxed.

Eventually, I decided to stop, content I had succeeded with today's meditation and calmed fully. I merely assumed just 15 minutes had passed, and sure enough 30 minutes had flown right by.

So perhaps in the past I just hadn't been trying for long enough, or been able to get past my busy thinking mind. But today I feel that I definitely got somewhere with it. And in regards to the sensation I felt between my thumbs... It very well could have been random tingling because I was relaxed, or tricks of my mind, but one thing ive learned today is that meditation can definitely relax me, regardless of my previous emotional state.

So I will definitely be looking into it more, and reading the link you have provided for me, and continue daily practices of meditation.



Any feedback or thoughts in regards to the 'energy'/'aura' I felt between my thumbs? Real, or just tricks of my mind/physically relaxed body?