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I try to recite as many duas as I possibly can but everytime I do I feel as if I am saying it with no iman in my heart, so that they words of the duas become absolutely worthless. Every time I pray, my mind drifts off. The worst whispers are “God does not exist” and “You are an Athiest”. I am almost near to tears when I think of this possibility, I am so scared that I already am an atheist which is why my duas are not being accepted or that if I am not one already, I will become one in the future. If that happens, I know that I will probably commit suicide because I could not bear to live with myself if I ever became a Kafir. Very normal. You have nothing to worry about.

Sister, one of the beauties of Islam is that you can prove its validity by these very thoughts you are having. But before I show you how, let me share with you my experience.

I have always been a Muslim. I was born into a Muslim family. But it was not until 12 grade that I became very interested in Religion. I began to pray and do everything which one should. I tried to get as close to God as I could.

The end result: Exactly what you describe.

Questions started entering my mind. Questions about the existance of God and what if it was not true. Every time I found an answer to a question, a new question poped up. And when I found the answer to that question, another question poped up. Finally, I had found the answer to all the questions and the only thing that would come to my mind was

God does not exist. God does not exist.

and

You are not a Muslim. You just say you are. You are not a Muslim. You just say you are.

The exact same thing you are experiencing.

Both of these are techniques which have been outlined in books of pscyhology. If you want to put someone in doubt about what they believe in, all you have to do is bombard him with questions he cannot answer. If that fails, then keep repeating something over and over again. This technique is known as brain washing and was succesfully used by Hitler.

Hitler brainwashed his nation into beleiving that they were a superior nation while everyone else was inferiror. He did this by just repeating this over and over and over again.

The devil uses both of the above mentioned techniques to drive a Muslim away from his fatih and into disbelief. The purpose of whispering "You are a kafir" is to dishearten you so that you will leave the deeds you are doing by thinking well I am a kafir so my deeds will not be of any good.

So, what you are going through is very normal. Many, if not all Muslims, experience this when try to get closer to God.

So how does this prove the validity of Islam?

The Quran says:

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

"Say: I seek refuge with the Lord of An-Nas.
The King of An-Nas.
The God of An-Nas.
From the evil of the whisperer who withdraws.
Who whispers in the breasts of An-Nas.
Of Jinn and An-Nas." Surah Nas, Quran

Note the part I have bolded. These two Ayats clearly make mention of a phenomenun of whisphering. Now it is only logical to deduce, that if the Quran is true, then we should see this phenomenun somewhere. And you and many other Muslims who experience these whispherings are the proof of the validity of these two Verses.

This Verse was revealed 1400 years ago. Which means that people even then experienced these whispherings. Afterall, why would such Verses be present in the Book of God, if no one experienced these whipsherings.

So, you see, what you are going through is very normal.

The solution is simple. Ignore them. Let them flood your mind and keep going on with your duties as usual. This will enrage the devil and eventually he will quit.

Also recite Ayah Kursi in the morning and evening. This Ayah protects against the jinns. Finally, be rest assured that you are a Muslim. This is only a trick the devil is trying to pull off and he can only succeed if you let him succeed. If you need any more help, feel free to respond to this post of mine.

Finally, as someone recommended, I advise you not to get into debates with atheiasts. They are very intelectual, some of them, and until and unless you have the required skills, which most Muslims do not, and the special protection of God, you will be in very big trouble.

And one more thing. You said

I am almost near to tears when I think of this possibility, I am so scared that I already am an atheist which is why my duas are not being accepted or that if I am not one already, I will become one in the future. If that happens, I know that I will probably commit suicide because I could not bear to live with myself if I ever became a Kafir. This is just a display of the strength of your Iman! When a person feels like this, it shows that his Iman is very strong. So you see. You have nothing to worry about!!!

Hadith 1:10 Narrated By Anas:
The Prophet said, "Whoever possesses the following three qualities will have the sweetness (delight) of faith:
1. The one to whom Allah and His Apostle becomes dearer than anything else.
2. Who loves a person and he loves him only for Allah's sake.
3. Who hates to revert to Atheism (disbelief) as he hates to be thrown into the fire."

So you see. Your hate of becoming a Kafir shows the strength of your Iman as you can see from the Hadith above.