[retrahdggd]

Im scared, and it's a fear I always push to the back of my head, one that gives me panic attacks, one that goes away when I meditate. It's not like meditating erases the fear, it feels like it helps me deny it. But Ive hardly meditated, I keep finding excuses and not caring about it and just forgetting. Also watching doctor who makes the fear come too, although it might be kind of coincidental with the fact that I'm just in one of these 'fear cycles'. I'm also scared to sleep and I don't want to.