[truportodfa]

We all get tired at some of the services eventually. Anyone that claims never to get tired is a liar. For some of us it takes a long time; for some it can be a very short time. It is part of our fallen humanity, and we are attacked harshly by the demons especially at moments of prayer and in the liturgical services. We allow ourselves to be deceived, thinking that nothing is really happening. Litanies pass by without notice. Blessings are given and all we think about is how low to bow down. But the Church does not give up on us, for Christ remains faithful to Himself and to us. Give yourself a rest if you need it. Take a seat, take a moment to observe the iconography. It may seem like a wandering mind, but we aren't perusing works of art with worldly conceptions. We are preparing to head back into the battle with our brethren. Just as we take moments of silence, facing the holy icons before our prayer rules, we can also use such moments to reconnect and recharge at the divine services. It is better to rest and then focus fully with vigor and love than to waver in and out of focus with agitation and impatience straight through.

And this isn't just because "we won't get anything out of it that way". This is a Eucharist, and we are showing God our thanks as best we are able. And remember, the Liturgy, "the work of the people", may have a stronger meaning: "the work which cannot be done alone". Don't be dismayed if you have to sit for a bit. Your brothers and sisters have your back, and Christ will not leave you in a time of weakness.

Will it get better? Perhaps. Yes and no. We all have good and bad days, so don't let it shock you when you feel yourself mostly unfocused at any future services. Just keep going back. Pray that the Lord might grant you endurance (as with any struggle), and trust that He will always accept the best that you have to give. =)