[casinoboneerer]

I usually try to project every day after school (mostly cuz i go to bed real late and am tired throughout the day hehe). I don't typically do it after school to get more sleep, but mostly just to try and project (although in the end it does feel like i get more sleep). I think this daily practice is getting me better and better at it cuz today, when I thought I could exit, I tried, and I could feel my (non-physical) body moving and floating/drifting and I didn't get the usual physical body twitch I'd experience when trying to exit or move. Although I still can never see anything hehe. Sometimes I pretend that I can see, and it's almost like I can see things, but not really. (if you get what I'm sayin)... Sometimes if I just start drifting to sleep I'll see a random image or something that will spark my conscious mind to try and focus on it, but then it just disappears into the hazy blackish green blobs. If only they wouldn't go away when I actually realize they're there. I've also begun to notice it's incredibly hard to stay lucid while dreaming, cuz you just go "wow I know I'm dreaming" and I dunno, it must send some kind of trigger to the subconscious to wake your body up cuz it knows you're awake or somethin... I've never been able to have a really LONG lucid dream...