[RonPeeredob]

am i crazy?

a few months ago an event changed me. i adopted a belief system based on the idea of spirits. what is a spirit? are they living beings made from some sort of energy? are they memories? are the interdenominational beings? are they real or imaginary? if they are all in my head then there must be an explanation for there presence. it could be that me being who i am (an individual who has been conditioned to not express himself through ordinary means of human communication) has a mind that somehow constructed an alternate reality as a coping mechanism. to understand that your concerns about my legitimacy are also my concerns is something very important. i question my sanity and you will undoubtedly do the same.

for the next few months i had simple yet complex discoveries about the nature of god, man, the universe, spirits, ets and the other dimensions. i think there may be interdenominational beings that have reached a level of consciousness where you can clearly see why doing good is beneficial for you and all. this is my idea of enlightenment. these are the white beings as opposed to the grey beings which still chose to to good and bad deeds. all beings do what they think is right, and or justified, even adolf hitler thought he was doing the right thing. becoming a white being doesn't mean that you loose free will, it means that you realize that what you want is what god wants. (god being everything in existence conscious)

here is an example of a train of thought that would go through my head. "if god knows my every thought then how come he wont just allow me to stop thinking, he's trying to tell me something. (clock says 7:07) he is he really is! what is it god i'm listening?............. maybe it is something i'll learn through these experiences....

at work i would think that the number of the tip i god would be a way for god to tell me the message. a lady with an attitude gives me a tip and i walk away and see that its 6 dollars a strangely large tip for a lady so upset with the service. its a message. then i learned that the numbers 1-7 (or 1-13) are levels of consciousness. 1 being physically reactive and 7 being enlightenment. the number 6 is the one right before 7 and is the number of the devil. the number represents sort of like a level of consciousness where you understand that in the big scheme of things... nothing matters at all because everything is just matter and since time and space are infinite some where there will be people enjoying existence again, therefore killing is ok and stealing is ok and everything is essentially dust in the wind. i like to think of this as the joker mentality, whereas the 7th level of consciousness is that of batman ("god consciousness"). knowing that since nothing can ever seance we can enjoy every moment and every breath and get others to see the same way. the reason i got 6 dollars was because in the moment i was walking away from the tipper i was filled with hate for her for her rude selfish behavior.

at some points during the day for a split second i will see into the spirit world where all that is visible is spirit energy. the spirit world in a city area is almost nothing because there are no living organisms, whereas the spirit world in a dense forest or wooden house is a little closer to what we see in our physical reality.

another thing that happened is i realized (or started believing) that i am a reincarnation of a historical figure. through fallowing these "messages" to books and on the internet. (this is how i found divine cosmos) due to the fact that this **** is actually what i believe to be the truth i'm not going to say who i am.

sorry if that was hard to fallow. i only have a 19 year old brain.



am i nuts?




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after reading this i'm not so sure.