[Alliopeti]

ds37ds wrote:

what i find strange about it is that it never gets discussed in concrete terms. experiences or specific memories are never discussed openly. is it because these can't be verbalized or is it something else? here are my specific experiences, which i just finished writing for another email group last evening:

i remember when i was 10 years old or so, i was already aware that i was different, that i came to a strange world as one visits a foreign country, that i was on a mission, that there were people "on the other side" watching me like i was some kind of experiment; i remember longing to convince my mother that i was different, that i needed a special education and lifestyle in order to accomplish what i came to here to do.

over the many years, i learned how to penetrate the many layers of my self more deeply. after my first and last full-blown channeling experience, i must have been energized to the point that i had a vision of another incarnation; i was part of some advanced society on a planet that was all solid blue, a virgin planet (by virgin, i mean beginning a new density). and the vision said that this was venus. this was years before i read the ra material. you can read the full tale in the following archived thread:
http://www.divinecosmos.com/forums/s...ead.php?t=8730

other experiences:

when i am in a visionary state, i feel as if i have a family of entities communicating to me; they form a circle within me and show me their varying points of views, as if i were speaking with a social memory complex. but this could be for various other reasons, like simply attracting other entities who come to aid.

also, there are specific rules that i cannot break it seems. and my inner self makes sure of it, for i have been through hell when i strayed off the path in the past. i cannot be judgmental towards others, and all the derivative things that would lead me down the negative path. it feels like this goes farther than just a matter of karmic grace; it feels like a support net to ensure i return home at the end of this incarnation.

i once had a very real dream of being up "on the mother ship" and they were instructing me on how to proceed with my incarnation, but this was after i started reading the ra material. this dream i can only consciously remember as a dream of white light. although i do remember there was some female entity that spoke to me. i also once had a related vision of tall beings of rapidly vibrating energy in large white halls. this was during what was probably the highest state of mind i've ever reached.