[Alexeryy]

great post magickal mongoose.

i was'nt going to post anything as i might ruin it for myself. but my car died and i'm stuck with some time...
last night i was more lucid than i've ever been before. i awoke three times throughout the night and each time i reentered sleep i got lucid.

some of the scenes were overlaid with patches of trail like patterns. as in hallucinogenic trails. it was like a grid work of small yellow spheres, each with 4 little arms extending n/s/e/w. was wondering if these were something like "consciousness units".
they were similar to phosphenes. but there must be something else going on. if not, it must mean the visual lobes are firing during lucid dreaming.

it seems with concentrated effort you can manifest things - in either the dream or 3d. tho for me, it never turns out exactly how i intended.
oh, um, once i realized i could'nt get sex (now how can that be, in my own dream?), i shot up into a pure starless black space and called out for (the archangle) micheal. did'nt sense anything but i'm glad i made the effort. on second thought, probably not too cool of a thing to do really. from seeking sex to calling an archangel!

i see most everyone has seasons with lucidity. it comes and goes with no discernable pattern. now this is annoying.
feel free to pm me about the sex thing. how can that be? the only thing (as dave indicated) is that it's not my own dream pool.
but it could also be that i've a problem with relating in this way. i have found or created it in prior lucid dreams.

in general, my problem is i seem to be loosing my centered-ness/concentration and composure. or increasing in absentmindedness and depression. and ten minutes ago i saw this weird - moving/morphing - shape in my minds eye/phosphenes. i had this a few years back and it went away. wondering if it's simply stress.
i made that earlier post about seeing spheres. i still see tiny points of light on a daily basis. it would be nice to know what in blazes all this is...
for now, i'll write it off as stress. aum......

but that is totally awesome about the trees!! i've got to try this. and i'm a bit peeved that i've never ever seen mention of this in any wiccan or ogham book!! shame!
it's probably no coincidence that during my last walk i heard two trees go pop. i just wrote it off as the wind. was'nt really windy tho.
they must be being infused with increased energy.
maybe some of us will go pop...