[Luisabens]

im sometimes so reluctant to post certain things that occur in life because i feel some things are just meant for the personal self for learning ect...but the reason im going to post this is because what i have been experiencing could merely be a trick of a stressed mind. im also not sure i would call this a new ability, i see it as more a corky thing my mind is doing-playing-whatever.

i have never ever seen anything thing with my own eyes besides the reality in front of me. no obes or working with my dreams ect...i try, but it hasnt been working for me. i am so not familiar of 'seeing' things that would not be the norm.
so anyways, my son had a doctors visit yesterday. my feelings about the appointment were very stressed and focused. i had to make sure my son was asleep for the test they were doing, he is 2 yrs old. appointment is at 1, so arriving 15 mins early, he fell asleep in the car on the way there, all was good! i carry him into the building, long wide hallway with the doors to the offices on either side. being not 1 yet, i realized their doors we actually locked for lunch. so there i am holding a 40lb. 2 yr old, whose asleep, no chairs, no benches, blah, i didnt want to carry him back to the car just to risk him waking, so i sit on the cold tile floor get comfortable and close my eyes. i was antsy and restless for the stress of making sure he stayed asleep, wondering about this test, my mind rambles, i open my eyes for i just couldnt relax. ya know when you get that feeling you want to close your eyes to think but your thinking so hard its like you can feel rem while awake. so your eyes pop back open on their own in a way. well so im looking around, pretty blue walls, white floor, nice sunlight coming through both ends of the hall-i see this quick scribble, silver, like a string of water of something floating through or i should say moving through the thin air. the first min. of this was very oddly intense. every time i blinked, i saw it. i did at first feel like a my odd mind was tricking my eyes. but yet, every time it was moving. not with my eyes, it would move sometimes to the left, sometimes the right, sometimes down or up. everytime was different. the first min. i was very tuned in a way to seeing them coming in like a wave every sec. but it didnt last even a second. i would find it, notice it long enough to see it was moving. like a string in thin air! they wouldnt necessarily disappear, they drifted towards me as well as going around me in a different angle everytime. the majority of them would drift to the left of me, my eyes would try to follow until it would then be behind me so to say out of my site. there was one time that it seemed to hover and have stillness for a split second. i could almost of drawn the shape. they were always curvy, no pattern, no straight lines. but sense they always seem to move almost instantly, its hard to put a for sure shape to any of them. they all looked like different little scribbles-not even a half of an inch, small little moving scribbles. i cant even describe the things that went through my mind between then and the moment the nurse come to unlock the door. really i thought i had now done really lost my mind.

spooked in a way, searched some things last night about some ideas. i did come across a video posted about a string theory video. in the video were flashes of little scribbles, it is the closest thing i can use to describe what i am seeing.

this morning with some down time and a much more relaxed mind, i tried to find these scribbles again. again i saw them. its like they are always there but they move. its soooo very strange. if it is all in my mind, what a crazy place it is. has anyone had this experience with stress? im not lacking sleep. should i have my eyes checked??! i really really dont feel like telling a doctor im seeing things

when they move, they almost seem like smoke, but if i catch it in the first millisecond there is a shape, but different shape everytime. when i try to find them or try to see one, so far i find success pretty dependable. i have to have a plain background of light color im finding to notice them. white seems to be the best being they look silver grayish. the color of a pencil actually. it really looks like someone is writing scribbles in front of my face in this air and then the scribble catches wind somehow and drifts by me. really really interesting, even if this is just a mind trick or eye trick or whatever.

peace to all,
lynette