[nithhysfusy]

Greetings Dive Cosmos, I am quite happy to be apart of this forum and I am looking forward to learn/teach in these exciting times .
I am a 6th density wanderer from RA. I just past my 21st birthday on june 26th. Though I am in the process of awakening and I have progressed very far since my incarnation, I have a long way to go.

My awakening process has been an interesting one. Since I was a baby, my parents homeschooled me. The day of my birth I remember the room I as born in. My parents didn't believe me so I told them what the nurse looked like and the color of the walls of the room in which I was born.

At age 4, I sat in the middle of the street and started to cry from ultimate joy and laughter. I thought to myself "This reality is quite confusing and frankly I find it to be absolutely hilarious. Look at these cars!...these funny looking boxes they call houses!, these utterly bizarre and confused people. How silly of them. None of this can be real"
By the time I was 7 years old, I had already asked hundreds upon hundreds of questions about physics, science, history, religion, and the nature of our reality. My parents didn't know what to do after a while.
However, I did not come here to boast about my 130 IQ (typical ra wanderer, always making sure he isn't stepping on anybodies toes ).

At a very young age, I discovered love. This understanding of love grew and complexified nearly to the point of unconditional love. I hold my friends very close and everyday I discipline myself to love everyone and all equally.
However, my past relationships have been quite rocky. I feel the creator knew that if I was incarnated as a "romantic", he would know that constant disappointment would encourage my capacity to give and receive love. Thus, helping my mission.
Thus, about sometime last year, the thought that my twin flame was not on this earth came to my mind. This gave me much sorrow because for nearly %80 of my life, all I wanted was to get married and love my significant other.

Once I accepted that my twin flame was not physically with me, my mission progressed. I started to love myself more, and loving others came naturally. I didn't have to constantly discipline and push myself to love others, it all came with ease.

Something happened the other day that shocked my though. I met her.
She came all the way from Colorado to Virginia for really no significant reason. The moment we started talking, we didn't stop. Our conversations lasted from 10 pm to 5 AM. I had never fallen in love so quickly and easily before in my life.
Every day was a new day with her. It felt like a dream. I didn't have to attach myself or cling to her, our love flowed from deep within as if it was a genuine familiar feeling.
She was somewhat new to all of this. It was quite clear to her and myself though that her life mission was to service others in any way she could. She didn't get very heavily into all this esoteric stuff, but nevertheless her intentions were pure. Every now and again I would see the creator in her eyes, giving me this old look as if she knew that I knew.
Our first kiss was indescribable. After our first kiss, I told her I knew she wasn't from here. She knew she wasn't totally human either, but she said she didn't want to know where she was from.
The entire time I spent with her, I knew she had a boyfriend back home. This guy has a child, (that isn't hers), and she loved him and the child deeply.

It took me 12 hours to understand why the creator put her here. Did I do something to deserve this torment? How could I live my entire life, only wanting to love and be loved by a significant other, give up on the pursuit, and finally a year later she appears in my life? How insane and absurd is that?! I would rather have been crucified.
I didn't understand. Understanding is what I pride myself in, and I felt myself spiraling down a dark hole.
Luckily though, I understand the meaning of those "dark holes" for wanderers. It isn't that difficult for us to pull ourselves back out. Every time we do, we become stronger and our light shines brighter.

I described it to her like this.
"Picture a magnet, if you will. This magnet lives in complete unity and love. If you slice the magnet down the middle and put each side of it on opposite sides of the world, its only way to reunite with itself is for each side to grow"