so very loving toward you right now foosnik. love your "trip" and love your conclusion. i always feel like i'm "backpacking" through my life, so what you say has strong meaning with me. allow me to rant on the topic of going toward our dreams. i am! let's not look on another and suggest that he/she is turning away from his/her dreams. my existence in life has created me to desire a single objective- to be a dedicated father, husband, family/home developer. three things i never had (not that i wanted a husband lol; not that there's anything wrong with that lmao). i run into people from way back in high school that say things like "i thought you should be in a lab creating a cure for cancer by now." well if i am so dang smart, then why won't you look at what i am actually doing and consider that it is genius!! (tongue in cheek). a great misstep i get from motivational persons (i.e. deepak in mythic journeys) is that our dreams must be grandiose. not everyone can be at "the top"!! there have been 44 presidents out of how many millions of persons? (not that being president is anything special afaiac). you are perfect, foosnik, for being you. i am too. all the other emotions are greatness too, and very much why we are here. i have incarnated for me, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and you, ad infinitum.