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thank you art.

i think you are right about this experience being like a catalyst.
i am learning to take things more easily now, it may certainly be that this friend and i are meant to help each other grow in some way. we are both deep souls, experiencing different problems, though in some ways we are similar. as far as wanderers go, he does definitely seem like one of them.

i'm learning to let go of this idea that there might be "one" special person for everyone, like another half of our own soul....i'm learning to let go of this romantic idea, and yet i haven't given up on hope completely, that i might meet somebody someday who truly understands me, who i can blend with harmoniously, and grow with.

perhaps its just my libra moon or something (conjunct pluto)....but i just feel the need, so deeply to be with someone.
i'll just learn to live with it and to channel my energy into things which are healthier for me.

art, you mention the dark night of the soul.
well, the problem is, with me, it seems to have been going on for years.
it has been going on since my early teens.
i experience highs and lows a lot.

perhaps i'll be okay some day.
i just really need to find a sense of belonging somehow, or just ways to channel my energy into other things, more positively.

thanks for all your love and support, good people, friends.


lots of love.

~ emily