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you could be right, mark.

someone just told me creative people struggle more with these things and are just not able to fit in in the sense that others do....and to need to learn not to be so hard on ourselves (?).

the other thing is, perhaps i should just steer away from romantic relationships altogether, because of the way my brain chemistry works. perhaps i should just wait until the next level/ plain of existence, where perhaps i will be less likely to fall prey to disillusionment and more likely to be able to find "the one".

god, if only these feelings i get weren't so strong.

i even kept getting these feelings/ thoughts drifting into my mind that this one could perhaps be more special connection-wise than any of the rest.

it's just ridiculous.

as one said in the film "amelie":

"times are hard for dreamers".


times are so hard for dreamers.

i hate being this way.

the only other thing that makes me feel so good is singing, and i wasn't even given a decent voice for that, just a pathetic choir girl/ helium type voice.