[casinoboneerer]

am i a wanderer?

i feel too un-evolved to be a wanderer.

but as a child, for no rational explanation, i always felt a painful longing, a feeling, that i had long lost brothers and sisters out there somewhere.

it hurts so much thinking about it, because i feel so trapped.

another thing i sometimes did, can't remember my exact age, about 11 probably- i sometimes tried to communicate with other life, out there somewhere in the sky.

one time, i even thought i saw something land in the field opposite.
maybe it was just my imagination.

i think i'm too un-evolved to be a wanderer.

i just feel there are parts of me missing.

i feel such a terrible sense of longing, of yearning.


god, this really hurts.

(i'm definitely not the unemotional sort, of wanderer, in any case, lol).