[KernJetenue]

i spend a life time in the 15-16 hundreds, maybe even earlier, as a celtic pagan somewhere in europe (perhaps the northern part, somewhere).
i regained a lot of memory of that time when i met someone i knew in that life. that was about the time when i really got into the occult; the tarot, seances (although that was an interest i developed as a child), and of course all sorts of magic!

and of course whatever i am interested in i attract the entities and though forms that are associated with the particular phenomena.

and of course those that were involved in these practices were also confronted with evidence of the reality of the paranormal.

yes, i actually contacted dead relatives for myself and other people as well. and many facts about myself that i already began to suspect were proven with a rather strong exclamation mark at one of these seances. an event 5 others and i will never forget!

concerning magic: i had rather obsessive patterns due to this interest so my guides put a synchronicity in place. i was being bullied by a girl at school and was on the verge of casting a black spell. i read tons of them; was trying to decide which one to use. around that time i began studying the elements, beginning with fire and that just added heat to my already aroused imagination.

by a "coincidence" i found a very different type of ritual for banishment of negativity: a prayer. all i had to do was lid a candle dip a photo of the individual in some virgin oil and read this prayer every night for (don't remember how many nights, sorry). for those that haven't guessed by now, this was a christian prayer.

i never did do any black magic thanks to the event i describe above. after that i was led by my guides to find the links between the occult and metaphysics and later on cosmology.

i was still interested in demonology and was trying to understand this difficult classification. although i turned away from orthodox christianity at a rather young age, i was eager to study the two opposing forces of this religion. i was trying to figure out why, o why do people create such distortions as the devil/satan.

my questions began to be answered when i began seeing more and more familiar names on the demon list. ancient egyptian and other pagan gods were showing up all over the place!

how can amun ra, the sun of god atum (still can't get over this name lol), be a demon with a legion of demons?????????????
in my mind at that time, little goat men where still the general/typical image of a demon, hehe.

did it ever take some time; to realize that most of the demons that are also pagan gods are actually aliens/extra-dimensional beings with free will and that most angels are aliens/etds without free will.* and that the rest that don't show up as any gods of past religions are thought forms!

angels like michael and gabriel (and others from that group that mated with the human females) can be found in both the lists of angels and the lists of demons. as i understand this distortion/mix up occurred due to the fact that they were peaceful aliens that would of course, just as ra, answer in the name of the positive beings familiar to humans; such as jesus, for example.

okay, anyways, awesome thread, can't wait for the convo to develop!

much love and light,
ra ma