[Adimonnna]

so true rhonda, the higher self expresses through the heart. i had my heart chakra blown wide by a golden shaft of light in an out-of-body experience back in the mid-seventies. it was the most profound, blissful moment of high spirit i have ever experienced. but it was in no way personified. i think ej hits it on the head as a "communion" rather than a communication, which implies separation, that old hobgoblin of a spiritual saboteur.

and that moment of communion happened only once for me in that way. as larissa put it, i got taken to the top of the mountain and plopped back down at the bottom. the rest of life has been seeking the trail back to there, a journey that has wandered through some frightening, and some wonderful (like this one) places. and i wouldn't trade it for the world.

so, gt, while the necessary catalysts to the search don't always leave me "happy," i know that i am blessed to be here, and i agree that the most interesting and exciting thing is choosing who i am down here, now. and that me is the one generating a golden shaft of the light of love to infinity (and beyond!).

we are becoming who we are. and i think there is a caution to predetermining that too much for ourselves. we are all inestimable and miraculous mysteries.

a band called gong once sang, "the more you know the more you know you don't know what you know trees grow words flow you never blow your trip forever" (slight paraphrasing in there i think, but that's the gist of it!)

as far as "past" lives go, i don't recall any. i wonder, e.j., if actually remembering a past life would imply that there were still lessons and work left over from them? and maybe i don't recall any because the catalyst in the now is so rich that any lesson that still needs to be learned can manifest just fine in the wild and wooly world we're in now.

and most truthfully, the idea of "past" lives, while potentially useful in self-examination, is just too linear for me. i mean, yeah, sure, i'm still here in space/time, but in time/space such a concept just doesn't fly the same, y'know?

ultimately, one consciousness, many, many eyes. y'all are my higher self!

love, blessings, and abundance,

frank-o