[Rememavotscam]

regarding to your question about the loo, it says this :

death, if natural, would undoubtedly be the more harmonious; the death by murder being confused and the entity needing some time/space in which to get its bearings, so to speak; the death by suicide causing the necessity for much healing work and, shall we say, the making of a dedication to the third-density for the renewed opportunity of learning the lessons set by the higher self. however i am not sure at all that fear of what is to happen on the other side is the right way to choose to live.

i have been in the same situation as you are now (as well as the exact opposite, how ironic!), and while no two situations are similar, my own experience made me vividly aware that such situations can be extremely difficult. i think ra's teaching(/learning) about 3r density beings having the opportunity to offer love, light and catalyst, but without having direct ability (due to the law of free will) to make decisions for others, may be useful for you in this situation