[Anypeny]

i hope it doesn't sound disingenuous, being that we haven't even met in person, but at the level that really matters, where we are who we really are, i do, and everyone on this forum does as well.

your pain is obvious and it seems that the best idea would be to reach out to another so that you will not be alone. i don't know how you feel exactly but i did try to commit suicide in high school so i do understand wanting to just be done.

i am excited by your ideas for making things because creating something new would be a great lift for you. and i would still hope that you connect with someone and quick. i don't have any ideas about karma but i do know that this life is a great gift, and while it is not the only life you will ever have, i think we go through a lot to get here in the first place, especially now as someone pointed out.

know you are loved and you are valuable beyond any of our imaginations--we all are. and don't apologize for feeling low and sharing it. there isn't a single one of us here who hasn't done the same even if not in the same way or for the same reasons.

"hold on to whatever will get you through"
in love and honor and light for all times,
karen