[MAKEMONEY]

wow, ya, what a trip. i cannot imagine how you feel, not really. but foosnik is right, there is love in the world, and your higher self perhaps just wants you to go out and find it? also, of course, you are love, but i can see how that could be hard to swallow right now.

you are not alone, not ever, and i hope you can hear these words right now at least. you may feel like you are being tested in the most crushing way and my heart goes out to you. but you were right when you said you didn't want to have to do this again, why you chose not to choose suicide as an option. stay focused on that as much as possible, stay focused on the reasons you rejected suicide.

reach out to whoever you can reach out to, including this community here. keep talking, stay in touch. it is of course your path so you get to choose, but if we can in any way keep you focused on life then by all means let us help.

in infinite love and light,
karen