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transiten, et. al.,


thank you for your input in this thread, all of you. you shared some really great stuff that has been helpful for me.


i'm hanging in there; i'm still around. i've decided to fully cancel the suicide option, as it's not an option, no matter what. david wilcock's input about suicide was the key for me in encouraging me to hang in there.


even though my family has totally cut me off, they are still making a small inheritance available to me, a mere $240/mo for several years, so i'll use that, plus dumpster-diving (dd) for cash back recyclable bottles and cans. i call the dd "post-waste management".


every time i go to sell off the recyclables and the recycling centers, there are many others doing the same thing that i'm doing -- the sheer numbers of americans scavenging for cash is quite astonishing. but i'll take this over doing job applications or working a job of any kind. i set my own hours and am free to do this however i want to do it. i'm fast and efficient, so i'm able to get around $20/hr doing this.


but most importantly, i soon will be making a trip by bus to oregon to approach a forestry company that is interested in looking at my invention that i had successfully used for many years in my forestry biz. i'm asking $100k for it, far short of the $300k that i was originally going to ask for it after hiring attys to do the patent process. i know that i can do the patent process myself, but i don't want to do that -- just selling off this invention is good enough for me.


i want to emphasize that the reason why i lost my wealth was that i over-indulged in the seven sins. even david wilcock admitted that he had a tendency towards addictions, so it's my own addictions to several of the seven sins that killed off my wealth.


just so that others can see themselves in what i'll share what my own seven sins were, i'll share them at great risk of embarrassment. if this helps just one of you to shift away from addiction and towards greater health, then this post would have served its purpose.


my part of the seven sins were:

1) lust -- internet porn. got me there. wasted tons of time and energy with this. this one was a huge time-waster for me.

2) gluttony -- i had not adjusted my dietary patterns to reflect my huge drop-off of activity when i retired and kept up with my bad pattern of eating huge amounts of comfort food. the addiction to comfort food was started by my own reaction to the pain of my near-deafness, so this addiction is long, long overdue in being eliminated.

3) greed -- i didn't think that my 4,000 ounces of silver was enough, so i sold off the silver to chase the platinum (pt) precious metal, but i wound up losing half of my wealth just from this move alone, despite one opportunity to exit this pt market with my wealth fully intact. at the moment, i have no precious metals on hand at all... just at a time when silver is going up like gangbusters. depressing.

4) sloth -- with my retirement from the rat race, i reveled in not needing to go off to work, so i really got lazy, although i did make some good use of some of my time handling the transcript team for this dc site and the old project camelot site. i just could not bring myself to work, though i could have worked a few forestry projects to bring in the $, so that i would not have to sell off my silver stockpile. oh, boy, now i do wish that i had gotten off my lazy ass to work just enough so that i could live without selling off my silver stockpile. huge error there. i just could not give up my laziness and this has cost me dearly.

5) wrath -- due to my reaction to the near-deafness and my angst over it, i frequently got mad, really hopping mad, to the point of destroying things explosively. i'm amazed that i'm still alive today, not to mention look years younger than my actual age, given how frequently that i've blown my top over the years. to do a rough count of how many times that i've blown my top over the years, i'd say it would be well over a thousand times, but nearly all of them have been when i was alone and i've never attacked any person. i very rarely explode with anger today, as i know how damaging it is to myself on many levels, including the shortening of the telomeres of the dna.


so the work on all these addictions are still a work in progress. so if you see yourself in any of these addictions that i've described -- get to work on transforming them! now. failure to address them can cost you dearly like it did with me.